Today, Another Unhappy day for the SKy is Rainning like ME ...:(

The weather really chill down my heart, and yes of coz its her i m tinking.

I wonder what is she doing today again and i tink of the past few sunday which i m still with her ... maybe she be with her family or with me ... hugging each other to watch the TV .. maybe disturding each other again .. or well go do some shopping ... or maybe on the bed ...as i type i drop tears and laugh ...

I look at the PS2, look at all those movie cd that we bought, well we really yet to finish all and i stop touching those games ... even my online game ..only that day when i saw her going online and so i log in juz to feel close to her ...

Still waiting for her ...looking at the door, hopping she will walk in .... it really been days i m going back to work .. and well i also been tinking how to cope with each day as it goes ..YES i m useless, u may say but well i really do LOVE her alot and alot ...

YEs still online, and again feel like writing so here i m back again with BLOG ...
Without her in my life now .. i m like half dead, again not eating not drinking .. but wtf, y cannot die one .. even when i walk outside, i pray a car will knock me down .. well coz me dun have the guts to go die .. till the day i really cannot hold on to it i guess.

I try to tink positive, tinking of those advises, tinking of people worst then me but well i juz can't ...haiz

Can someone help me ... i m hopping ...for now i live for me myself to see the day i be back with her again, this is really 1 gd strong point for me now .. but its really going no where and chanceless ...

For now .. GOD or Anyone ..PLS MAKE Jean happy, make her with good health, bless her with everything that she deserve .. if it were to take off my expenses of anything at making her with the best, pls do fullfill it ...