Time now is 19:37

Dinner time and again well not eating .. no appetite ..smoking tend to be a better option.
Again i feel like writing, well thoughts abt her is every single secs and min ..

At times i m tinking, u r not really a stubborn person but y making yurself so unhappy and giving up, when i c u at WOW that night, i knew and understand what u r trying to do.
Its like shouldering everything all alone by u yurself. I know the unhappy and mistake in the past make up for the person u r now and the things u experince u r afraid.
I cannot be in yur past but for now i can say i promise to share everything with u, be by yur side. To fullfill the promises and to change for a longer path.
Its a dead end in front but there might be a cornor around filling with hope.

Hope u have a nice day ...

I send her 1 copy and i noted it down here .. hopefully one day this one be something, a memory that i treasure or a place for me to bitch ...well i do have a few in the past but well all delete away ...

So many gals i met or shd i say my ex gf, maybe can say they r the past and so can say time do heal as it goes .. but Jean, she is different, someone whom i tink after 3 years of single life, i tend to see more thing and understand wat a ger wan but guess i m wrong.
I thought i m ready, mature to see, able to guide and advise but still .....
This time may really be the last .. and maybe it might not .. but at this moment of time i m saying I LOVE HER ...and i will stay by the promises.