End of year 2006 ...

I guess when coming to the end of every year .. we tend to reflect wat we went though and etc ... so well its really a bad year ..
Happy for one of my close friend Michelle and ye she finally getting out of the stupid r/s haha .. well m i bad .. not really i guess .. well the guy sucks ..she deserve someone better ...

Happy night i guess but in the end i turn moody again after having so much drinks i guess .. happy coz some catching up with michelle .. mavis ... jiajia and my mei veron .. and some other new friends at pub drinking ...

Well mavis is juz like me .. guess we 2 always end up the wrong path .
Was at pub coz they r celebrating someone birthday ..but not really a great turn out and celebration i guess .. everyone change .. but i m glad to have a few close one will do ... the rest is really too untrueful and well wearing mask haha .. i hate it .. turning moody as the song is getting ssadder ..having more drinks ... in a way i feel kind of sad for my ex ... juz wondering when will she really realise and grow up .. to settle down for wat she wan ... maybe i do miss her i guess .. or missing the other one .. the other one worst .. giving up ... taking me for granted ..haiz guess its another wrong one i met ... a pity to give up or shd i use time to show .. i guess i have really done my part ...

For me reflecting this year ... r/s is bad ... job wise ..hopefully a new start ..
did i change to a better man ? heh duno .. well i tend to find myself better if compare to other guy to be which i known i guess .. hopefully i find a new motivation .. for the upcoming year .. wishing for a better year .. till now .. well is it so hard to fullfill it ...

I sure continue to stay positive i guess ... at the same time awaiting .. i tink i shd really migrate my blog and change the stupid title lol ... well thats all folks ..

Hmm M i Still Lost ...

Hmm well glad that my new job is kicking off ... feeling of her is not as much as it is used to be .. Only at times when I drink too much .. I feel sad ..But well maybe not becos of her ..But coz I m feeling bad of my life .. Always end up at the wrong path ... heading to another stupid exit ...

Well current job, I guess I cannot job hop anymore even though I dun really enjoy it ... another politic place I guess ..

Recently was having a talk with a friend and well was reflecting badly on my life .. Feeling stupid and regretful in a way I guess ... how I wish few years back I m much mature having my current thinking .. If so I would be damm rich ..Still driving a car ...but I guess if I never go though all those things, maybe for now I m still playing around and etc and so I start thinking abt people character and life .. When I was still driving and etc .. Almost everyday I have a date .. almost everyday I m out at nightclub having fun, clubbing away and etc ... money really can drive a person up crazy and well r those really happiness to be ...something which we really feel happy from our heart ... does people really so realistic and fake to be ..

Is the environment around people tending to change a person view so easy .. And talking abt relationship, do each and everyone know what they themselves are looking for ..
Why can't people be satisfied in away or so .. Be trueful ..

I guess I really change alot over the years ... really like seeing though everything in life .. But being a good man always ends up the same .. Nothing seems to be in the right way ... and I always end up being unhappy ..Or I always expect and hoping things to be too fast to get ..

All I wan now is someone who can spent half of my life with .. Someone whom I can dote and love .. And been satisfy and acting as a motivation in my life ... in away to be satisfied ..having simple life I guess ... meaning to learn to enjoy life in a more loving way and etc ... learn to enjoy the freshness of air when u take a breathe in and say ..Heh its sweet ...

M I really thinking too much at times or am I really been too sensitive ..But at times I just find the feeling not right .. Recently met a ger .. A nice ger I would say ..Good character ..Straight forward .. But something not good is .. Well I hate it when I m being stood up, not about being stood up, its just that the feeling u see ... looking forward for something but at the end .. Feeling disappointed .. And to me I m those emotion type of person ...well ya .. I wana take a step forward to understand her more but well the feeling she gives me at times .. Dun really makes me feel to ask thing abt her or I would say I don't even have the chance to ask ..

hmm well let nature take its course I guess ..but also need to be a starting point somewhere too .. I guess the feeling of everyone or the approach is different to each and every one of us I guess .. argh well I guess I m bothering too much ..

But hopefully it is a good start..