IF life is juz a click away to control ...

Heh well weekend over, hmm still on leave, gona admit that life really not been easy without her, i still pin for her every single min and secs, wondering how is she doing.

If life is juz a click, well juz like the recent show, it teach us to treasure wat we have and not to take things for granted but not well i wish life will juz be like that show, does all good man deserve a break and a 2nd chance ? maybe i m not that good afterall i guess.
Well watching the show, really make me drop tears and tend to reflect, me juz being too emotion as always.
Haiz my heart still feeling pain as ever, i guess i m really getting depression soon, i keep having stupid thoughts and i wonder how long m i gona last till i get better. WHy ?

Idle all the way, staring at the wall, looking up the sky, asking for an ans, and well and wat i get is an ans which i guess i never tend to achieve.

It been 1 month 1 week, will tend to take 10 years or more juz like the show to wake up and realise what i have been missing in life, guess not, maybe for now i have no idea how to move on yet.

If the day i start to writing somthing better on this, i guess it be the time i have really wake up.