I miss her like crazy ....

Well juz back home, having some drinks and well shower over the rain ...
Longful day today, one of my friend came over frm netherland and well so a few of us show him around, kind of bad host i m i guess, coz i m not feeling the right mood, my mind really been occupy by her now and then ...
Well fetch him from airport, bring him go change money, then meet up with more kids ... nice seeing hatezz after so long too ...eat then went lanshop, playing SG, well some get scolded by me for bad gameplay, heh something for me to release my stress on, for the whole day, i juz feeling damm moody but well to show up a cheerful me ... then went to find my Mei over the pub she working at, well scolding from her again ... heh nice seeing elton there too ... heh even he knew nthing but well he say as a guy point of view he can see i dote on her alot, maybe at time its juz my way of approach ... being over caring for example ...
Well all i can say all i ever do, is juz love her wholeheartly ....
But how i wish i be the perfect guy in her eye ... but time dun allow me to do so ...
I still miss her every night, smoking my life away, dropping tears ..seeing at her picture ... having stupid thoughts, soon i gona have a depression ...

After pubbing, bring my friend go geylang supper, then walk him around red light district ... eye opener for him i guess ...

Well for now .. nthing on my mind but her ... i feel like bitching so much juz to take my mind off her .. but no matter how .. my life seems to be control by her ... i dun understand wat the hell i did wrong, wat the f i deserve all this ...

I feel so useless in me, y i can't juz wake up ... i knew wat everyone gona say, all even advises ... but i juz can't take her off ...

Heh never ever in my life, i found someone whom we tok abt the future ..planning .. but why ... even the time is short, but i m really putting in my effort ... haiz .. i m really going nuts and well maybe it might be better ..to juz brain wash everything .. but no matter wat .. the heart pain will still be there ...

How i wish i can tell her now that i love her ... i will love her every morning she wake up ever and after ... for now again i can only bless and pray for her for her well being and happiness ..

ps: I love u Jean ..