I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you

Haiz Y m i so idiot, so many thoughts in me, so many wondering, i feel so unhappy, moody .........

I heard someone whisper your name, but when I turned around to see who it was, I was alone. Then I realized that it was my heart telling me that I miss her that much ...
haiz m i getting myself into such patheic state, finding for pityness ?
But i cannot deny me feeling, my thoughts ...

"I miss you like the sun misses the flowers, like the sun misses the flowers in the depths of winter, instead of beauty to direct it's light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world which your absence has banished me to."

Heh i came across the above mention quote, it really describe me ...

I don't want anyone to know, so I try to be strong. I don't want her to think that without you, I can't go on. But that's how it is, and that's how it will be, because,I love her, I need her, I miss her, and without her, there's just no me, why must i be in this way, why .... miserable ..Zzz

Pain ..ye heart pain .. well at least i feel it and i knew i m still alive ... lol
Have you ever cried your eyes out until all the tears in this world have dried, not dropping tears that often and yet the sourness and pain in your heart still hasn't gone? That's when the person causing me the pain is the only one i ever loved ?
Or i m juz pain selfish ...
When love leaves our heart,i always have hope. Hope is what keeps my sprits alive and makes it easier on me i guess, because it's better than the truth ... haiz

Guess bitching is all i can do for now to make me feel better. Zzz