Irony Life ..

Hmm i notice i m being in a confuss again, well yesterday thought i can c her, i was kind of happy and was really hopping for something, and i even plan for something but guess in the end, she never came.
I really duno wat m i doing, i find my life being in control by her.. but well at the end of the day, its still me.
Well communicate via sms, knowing that she is helping her grandpa and etc, heh at times i really can't help putting myself in her shoes and wonder.
Well juz recieve sms from her, well i knew i will and i did help her with the req she want. Heh but at the same time, i juz can't stop wondering is there anyting happening to her, but well she told me she dun feel like saying, personal matter, well fine.
And well then my friend told me, i m spoilting her, and say maybe its for other purpose too, lol.
But for what i know her, i guess well she not really working now, and maybe i tend to know .. i know my heart told me that in watever things it is, i will go all means and way to help her, be there for her, but my brain tend to tell me i m stupid in a way and make my thoughts run wild ...

Will Time prove my love and cement my place in her heart forever. For time will give me the credibility and the believability that I need to convince her to want to spend the rest of her life with me, well i wonder am i worthy of such a commitment.

Hmm everything seems so the KNN Zzzzz