Wallowing in Self Pity .. Patheic ..Zzz

The period of loss and pain really keep extending on to an eternity of what ifs. After spending a few weeks of wallowing in self-pity, i m really feeling so miserable.
Everything in my mind is all her ... haiz
The pain i feel right now is heart-wrenching and excruciating, but each day it will be a little less. The only true cure for heart break is time <-- heh who say that, it juz get worst .. dupz.
I m trying not to compose my own thoughts or even make them make sense - so i just write, but well even i m writing i m thinking of her.
On the other hand, i m thinking is there really something truly that special,that could be worth the wait or is she really so mean just to forget anything, the time we spent together just don't worth anything ? Zzzz
Love alone cannot make a relationship work long-term, to change, to bear to walk a longer path is what i m trying to bring out at times but well m i stubborn, don't understand or she is.
Healing my emotional damage, and find out who m i without a partner, is really calling the sky but the sky don't reply .. memories r happiness but it bring back sadness too for the seek she is no longer with me...No communication will only leave a vacant spot in a r/s.
Well quitting my job, taking a break, collecting back my feeling .. well still not that bad, still kicking and alive, struggling but well just a matter of time i guess.
But 1 thing time cannot heal, is my love and concern for her.

"Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you."

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream... sucks ah hmm haiz i m like wasting my time ... guess I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me ya.

A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried!

And well what shd i do next ... heh well resume touch up but guess no mood yet, still drowning myself in the patheic shit i guess ....