A day of memories

Well, nthing less still wondering abt her, and i send her a mail, all the sudden i have a thinking, since she wana be so mean and clear cut to me, so i told her i suspended the line and ask her for the payment and also the thing she purchase online, well juz wana take back the cash to pay back those i own for the bookie, well but still i cannot pass myself, i knew i will never do such a thing, but then i thought of wat my friends say the past few day, y muz i still be so stupid and etc since she is so mean to me, even as a friend, she dun ever care and act like nothing happen, love hmm .. i keep thinking of the days i m with her, her smile, her laughter, her nottiness ... the more i tink, the more pain i feel in my heart, but it bring a smile to me ... maybe to love is to let go but guess human r selfish.
Heh as usual, i expect what she reply me back, and well she do remember every single things i guess, maybe thats how some people handle things but well even as a friend, certain things might turn out well with a better approach and attidude.

But well last i say forget it, its not going to mend my heart anyway, maybe i juz wana make myself feel better in a way but its still not helping.

Then i log in nightlife.sg after so long, browsing my profile and her profile, those statement that she wrote and i wrote, everything is so sweet, so many promises ... so many people withness it, so many blessing from others... *Drop tears*
And the friend which i met in nightlife, those clubbing days ... well i really do miss it but i miss her more.

Her first entry for me on 04/04/06 :
Feeeling more and more bliss and happy. As you're become part of my life. You're my moral pillar, you can't fall.. If not, i'll fall as well.

You're always there encouraging me, give me supports, guiding me along the path we're going thru now. As you said, the path we're heading thru now is not easy, but I'm sure we can pass the test God are giving us.

I don't care what will happen in the future, but rest assure I'll always be by your side no matter what happens. You have my word.

Though this entry is very short, but it's what I am feeling inside out.... I've given you my heart, so you must really treasure it ... So do I, I'll treasure everything ... *muacks*

PS :: I LOVE YOU
PS :: Don't betray, cheat or unfaithful to me ... or I'll really collaps

On the 05/04/06:
Darling!! Missing you now badly ... Anyway, another 2 more days will be when we know each other for a month ... though it's only a month, but i feels like for a very very very very very very long time!!!

Hope you'll like the pressie i'm giving you later ... Give it to you first before i got no money to buy it and do it... keke ...

Loving you always!! *muacks*

-=*[Our story beings :: 15th March 2006]*=-

On the 09/04/06:
Darling, you always asked me what I love about you ... This is what I love about you...

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and brown.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

*Muacks*

Even though I'm seeing you every now and then ... But I do still misses you badly ... Even for now [you're sleeping like a dead log! :p ]...

Wishing that you can hug me and watch tv, or even hug me when u see me walked into room wanting you to wake up...

I do admit that I was kinda throwing my temper last night... But thanks to all your assurance and understanding, and which made me cool down..

Thanks Darling for everything you did... *Muacks*

On the 10/04/06:
I can't stop myself from knowing you somewhere in Febuary 2006 ...
I can't stop myself from chatting on MSN with you since 16th Febuary 2006 ...
I can't stop myself from seeing you on Dbl O on 8th March 2006 ...
I can't stop myself from going out with you since Dbl O night ...
I can't stop myself from falling in love with you ever since ....

I can't stop myself from writing this entry ... At the same time,
I can't stop myself from missing you badly ...

Love you~
*Muacks*

On the 15/04/06:
You're mine, and I'm yours ... We're apart, not a part ..

Never will we be separated ...

*Love you always*

*Muacks*

WHich i and her 1month together.



Well She told me that Ultraman and Sailormoon will be together always.

And she say, Ladies, this gentlemen here, name James, is my Hubby.
I won't let anyone take him away from me, no one.
So, hands off from him and leave us alone.

He's my property, and I'm his assets.

We belong to each other.

Whatever we went thru now and before,
It made our relationship,
feeling for each other stronger than ever.
We promised to tie the knot 3 years later,
and I want it to happen.
I want it to realise.

So sweet hor, as i read, i cry ... really hurting.

Heh this is what i wrote to her on her guestbook:

On the 26/04/06:
Well life is full of up and down .. but without doing anyting at times, the greatest support that i can get is from you.
HUman will never be satisfy of what they have but i m satisfy of having you ... As i promise we will walk down the road together and guide u along.
Life will never be interesting and fullfilling if we dun learn ..but the greatest thing to let me learn whole heartly is u .....

"A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong."

As mention each every single changes make us closer, stronger and loving u more ...

On the 02/04/06:
Hmm Missing u right now ...

"Whenever u seems to drift away from me, I can't help but miss u. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me."

Why do I love you? cos you are and always have been my dream since the day i fall for and give u my heart ....

On the 30/04/06:
From the first time i saw you ... u leave a bad impression to me but well i set my eye on u ....
As time goes ... i have a liking for you ....
And time goes even further for me to fall in love with u ...

The time we know each other might not be long, but fate bought us together for me to dote, to love, to treasure u ....
Path might not be easy .. but thx for giving me the chance to guide u and me along to walk together ....

For the time we being together, i shed tears and laugh from the bottom of my heart ....i know i love u deeply and may the time be the best man to judge ...
Thx for the love that touch my heart, thx for the care and concern which i have been longing for .... thx for making my day more and more worth it as the day pass ...

I might not be the one for u but i will make u the one for me for as long as i am around ... i might not be able to provide u the best but i will give in my best to make it the best for u ..to be happy ....

Immature love says: 'I love you because i need you. "Mature love says ' Ineed you because I love you.'
To the world you may be one person, but to me you may be the world.

Last but not least ... I love u .....

And also come from some other people blessing .... haiz how i wish i can turn back the cloak and freeze it there.

IF i ever have a wish now, i wish for the better of her, and happy 4ever.

I guess she will never come back to me anymore, even as a friend anymore ... but she will always be deep inside my heart always ...

And well one of my best friend Shewin's grandma pass away, and well he was quite upset, and i thought of my mum, guess life is abt treasuring and cherish, certain things need not be a must to have, but well death might be an better option out to certain things to release.
As long as one is clear to his own heart .. but as time goes, i m really tired abt it ...
Will there be miracale ?
I still wana say I LOVE HER and MISSING HER.