A really pain day

Well really a bad day, a heartbroken and pain day ...
She went back to her ex husband and well carry on to their wedding plan .. and well i feel so cheated, feel so like been making use of ... but well i do belive we love before .. treasure wat i used to have and been bless for that i have it before, not asking forever.
Its really easy say then done but well this 2 day, i really been better .. learning to let go, covering up the facts of being unhappy and sad.
Life still goes on .. and seriously its really damm hard ..very hard ..
Its the emotion, feeling that is inside hurting so much.
Biggest weakness in me ... feeling, emotion which i never get pass over the years.
Today she came over to pick up the parcel, i wish her the best and congrat her for her wedding ... and well she just turn her back on me ... that really hurt .. as she walk off, i watch at her as she walk till the end and i lose trace of her ... :(
Then i took myself a walk and smoke, well then i c her with her husband to be, she was hugging him, kissing him .. i watch till they left ... the pain in me is really cannot be describe .. and tears drop and well cry again ... haiz

The feeling of being DA FANG, is not that great afterall, worst she treat me like an stranger ...

I feel so pain in me ...